have you ever just looked at someone and thought, my fucking god i love you. i love every goddamn ounce. i love your bones and your soul. but I’m a loser, who just doesn’t wanna lose you. i can lose fucking everything, but not you. oh god. not you.
When you love someone, it’s not about who knows, it’s not about showing people that you’re happy, it’s not even about all the cute couple pictures. When you love someone, it’s about how you make each other feel, it’s about friendship, trust, communication and ultimately it’s about putting the other before yourself. So, before you go telling people about your relationship ask yourself “Am I telling them so they envy me or am I telling them, because they genuinely care about my happiness” because in the end, the only people who should really know every detail of a relationship are the two people in it. Your relationship doesn’t involve and should never involve anyone else. So, say what you feel, show what you feel, spend every moment cherishing your significant other, spend every moment apart missing each other, and never, NEVER let someone make the rules for your relationship.
I keep it all together, I put on a fake smile, but inside I’m just torn apart! I hate Eugene. I hate being far from my friends, family, and my boyfriend. I miss having people around. I’m miserable as hell and the only fix is to move to Portland, but there’s no way my mom will let that happen and no way to find a new roommate for my current roommates in time. I’m tired of this nightmare that is my life. I’m so close to my breaking point and no one can help me :(
The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference.
My boyfriend, my best friend, my world, and my everything ❤️ I love you Santi